Bon Secours Mercy Health: What Did I Do to Make You Want to Hurt Me So Badly?

I never wanted a war.

I never wanted lawsuits, retaliation claims, or to become a whistleblower. I never imagined my name would be attached to federal filings or advocacy networks.

All I wanted was to help build a great neurology clinic — one that expanded access, delivered excellent care, and truly served the community.

When I arrived, I was hopeful.

I was motivated.

I was ready to pour myself into patient care and help grow services that would change lives.

The Dream vs. the Reality

When I first noticed workflow breakdowns and patient safety concerns, I didn’t think twice about raising them. I assumed leadership would want to fix them. I believed we were on the same team.

Instead, everything shifted.

I was forced onto ADA leave I never asked for.

I was locked out of clinical systems.

I was denied accommodations.

And while I was in the middle of PTSD, I was threatened instead of supported.

At the very same time, the organization continued using my image — an “award-winning physician” — in promotional materials, while behind the scenes they were dismantling my ability to work.

The contradiction was stunning.

The Questions That Haunt Me

I still find myself asking questions I never expected to ask in a healthcare system:

What did I ever do to deserve this?

At what point did I stop being seen as a person — as a physician who wanted nothing more than to live out her calling and care for patients?

Was it really worth retaliating against me, knowing it would hurt patients too?

Because patients are being hurt.

Patients now find me on social media, confused and worried about why their neurologist disappeared.

Patients have lost continuity of care.

Appointments were delayed. Coverage gaps widened.

All because retaliation mattered more than healing.

The Truth

I didn’t want war.

I wanted to heal.

I wanted to serve.

I wanted to make things better.

But until healthcare systems stop punishing physicians for raising concerns — and stop retaliating against clinicians for needing accommodations — patients will continue to pay the price.

This is not just my story.

It is a warning.

When institutions choose power over people, retaliation over repair, and silence over safety, everyone loses — especially the patients we’re supposed to protect.

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